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Earlier this month, as I pondered a theme for March on A Bird in the Hand, I found myself getting excessively frustrated. I couldn't think of anything, that I could write about, that someone else couldn't already do better and write about more eloquently. My intention isn't for this blog to become a competition between the contributors (especially if I was going to lose *wink*), but I did want to be able to speak knowledgeably about a subject if I was going to write about it. Every time I thought of a subject (cleaning, parenting, beauty, grace, being a godly wife...) my mind would go absolutely blank. I began to panic - "It's my turn to pick!", "I have to come up with something!", "I can't let the team down!" "think, think, think!!".
I spent a ridiculous amount of brain cells, striving just to pick a simple theme. And then it dawned on me, I haven't taken this to the Lord. I had prayed about it...sort of, but had I really sought the Lord for an answer?...no. I immediately dropped my heart to it's knees and began to pray. He answered. Though He did not immediately give me the answer to my question, like I wanted (of course). He lovingly pointed out where I was missing the mark. I cannot wait until I have all the answers to share with others. If I wait, I will be sharing with others directly from my own proud heart, instead of from His gracious wisdom.
Matthew 6:27-29 Which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature? “So why do you worry about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin; and yet I say to you that even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.
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So the topic was chosen, not because I can speak intelligently on the subject, but simply because I need to grow. And though it is easier to wait until I feel confident in what I am sharing, I believe the Lord will be able to use me more effectively when I am vulnerable with Him, and also vulnerable with you.
And just to show you how much work I really need, even after this wonderful revelation, in my weakness and insecurity, I still had to ask one of the other contributors if they liked the topic before beginning to write about it. - I may never learn. Thank the Lord for his undying grace toward me, I am so undeserving!